My life has in the last year went from heaven to a total nightmare. My husband and i are married for 4 years now and we are 9 years apart in age. He has had other marriages/ relationships before me which gave him three kids(all different mothers). Im the youngest women, the rest were all older than him. The first 2 years was a dream. Then he starting bringing his family into our lives and things went crazy. His lies and lack of physical behaviour with me suggests that he was having an affair. However i cant prove it. I took out a divorce but i didnt see it through. But no matter what i do, his ways suggest that he dont love me anymore. His business is away from home so i hardly see him, and he dont call and if he does it is for 1 min. I have two kids with him and he wont even speak with them. All signs say i should just leave him and get over it. My issue is, i am financially dependent on him. Im trying to get a job at present. But the emotional side is the problem. I am depressed and cant see any thing positive. Please help me to be strong again