to be honest... and know what denial is and i am not there... but i really don't think i have a crush on him. it's more of a loving'ish a mentor or something like that. i do not have any romantic feelings for him or "he is really cute" stuff. i think because of the care and support he's given me that in my mind feels like love, it makes me feel attached and feel like i love him.

Sam2 thanks for your honesty, i know i needed that and i really should look for that caring hug/touch somewhere else and tell someone ELSE who's not him about the cutting. i know what you said is true and it does hurt but i know you're right. i needed to hear that. so thanks.

--Sam