Dear T,

Thank you. You answered almost immediately: "I'm alive and kicking. See you tomorrow".

Well. I guess it was tough love these past 3 weeks, huh?
I wish it were tomorrow already so we can discuss it. Please, G-d, let the weather be okay.

Is it okay if I cry? Because you're okay and because part of me wished you weren't okay so you had a valid reason not to email me.

What is wrong with me that it hurts so much because you didn't acknowledge the baby? We will talk about that tomorrow. I'm going to take 50 mg of zoloft and maybe a valium too so I can get some sleep.

little rainbow
adult rainbow