I agree with the folks here who recommend reaching out also irl to get the help you deserve with this. You should not have to live in this much anguish. Posting here is also great of course !! And by the way, there is no trick to stop eating. Manily because starving ruins peoples health. Trust me when I say that. Please do not choose that as an option. Because it will solve nothing. This is not just about a fast cosmetic fix. okay?