so i guess this post might be deleted by mods perahps. but there is nothing more stressful than feeling like u don't relate to those in ur relgion anymore. I feel so disconnected with everyeones experience with christiantity.. its so disconcerting. not only do i feel far from God. I feel like every church i find, they are planets away from me. It all is so fake, so frigtheningly unreal, believing in so many things that arent real and true, those acting in a emotinal frenzy. sad thing is all i want is to meet another christian who is real... and i cant find it.. everyone i meet is spouting some versus without thinking about them or going deeper , looking at reality, pretending to or deluding themselves of their own experience. sorry if this offends.. delete it if u must. I m just so frustrated because i never thought i 'd be where i am.