wow, now im even worse. i didnt think it was possible but i am. i was just informed of a post on another forum site based in ireland. its the biggest one in ireland. the post was by a friend who is from this moment on not a friend. he was asking other people on the site if there is a program that runs in the background on your comp so that noone knows if its on or not that would block me from going on certain sites. the post stated that i had a porblem with goin on suicide sites (which by that he means sites like this, which just shows that he doesnt understand what im going through coz all this site is doing is trying to help me) and that i was going on porn sites which i havnt done. so he obviously went through my history today (behind my back) while he was over and found out that i was on this site and hes just plain making up the whole thing about the porn sites. im worried now what he may have on my comp already im really paranoid now. he could have anything on it like a keylogger or something like dat. im also worried that when i tell him i dont want to be friends with him anymore that hell tell my parents that i have been going on suicide site which would most likely mean that they would take away the internet form me. what should i do? i know that im going to tell him that im not going to be friends with him anymore but should i talk to my parents after that and tell them about how this site aims to help people and how much it has helped me already? i, yet again, dont know what to do. my head is all over the place. i cant think straight anymore