Thanks and I did read that poem. It was a really good poem to not want to do it. I don't have many people to talk to about it. That makes it even more harder. I haven't told any of my friends and don't want to tell my therapist because I know she will tell my mom and its kind of hard not to keep things near me that I can cut with because a while ago I was really close to doing it and was going to use my razor in the shower.