Saw family doc today and she will continue the lorazepam. So relief there. Now I'm thinking is this real? Is bipolar real. My mood is all over the place. I went off the gabapentin 2 weeks ago. Only been on the lamictal for a week maybe that's it, Idk.

My family, therapist and the pdocs I saw in the hospital certainly think I have it. But then I'm left with meds and then this med and then we'll that didn't work so let's try this one, etc. I'm so overwhelmed, anxious, irritable, sad, confused. At least I'm not crying right now. But I'm sure I will be before the day is over.

Anybody else experience this state of confusion? This state of feeling so raw and vulnerable?

I know I'm whining, I'm still new at this. Trying to figure it out.