I am feeling so overwhelmed right now. The problem is that I can't tell anyone including my therapist and doctor. Everone thinks that I am doing so well but I am not. I just had a baby recently and I am afraid that if I tell my therapist or doctor that they will take her away from me. I can't live without my daughter. I love her too much. I just started working at a job 40 plus hours a week because my husband cant work. I am on disability because of my problems. I can't do this job, but if I quit we will lose our house. The morgage company gave us this one last chance. It will be my fault if I can't do this. I am also trying to care for my husband who is very ill. He was life flighted to a better hospital for treatment not so long ago. Is illness is not terminal, but it is not curable. It can be at times very dabilitating. Because of all of this, I am considering self injury again. I have not done this in two years!!!!!!!! I will feel like a huge failor if I start up again. But if I can't get this stuff out of me I am not going to be able to do it.