All the time. Doctors will play guess what might work next. Most of my friends and acquaintances won't have a clue there is anything off about me. I can put on a great picture for anyone who is willing to watch a very normal, polite person bumble around. I constantly question whether or not my moods are abnormal and bipolar or just moods and my inadequate ability to cope with them. Most I know wouldn't swing so dramatically like I do but, most I know haven't got a clue that I'm like this. My one peak into reality is my husba f but he has the label himself and I find him quite normal so his attempts to tell me I'm not don't work well, would they?

I decided to determine what I want and need and go for that, the rest, the normal picture, it is a front, like an actress I can play the part without worry.