MM,

I can relate to your entire post. I have done it all.

My husband tries to understand my BP. But he can't understand my ED and the cutting at all. Hell sometimes I don't even understand it.

ED and cutting as you know is mostly caused by self loathing and lack of self worth. I hope that you can hang in there.

You love your husband and son, that is so evident in your posts about them. I think you are just in a really lousy place right now, but remember it will pass.

Hug your husband and tell him you love him and you are just a bad place right now and your working your way out of it. ( I have done this and it helps to reassure your loved one that you are working hard.)

Keep talking to your T , you can never over share.

You are loved, Know that you deserve that love. You are not alone, not at all.
You are in my thoughts and I'm sending you good thoughts always