Thank you so much for replying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just need someone to talk to and I am to afraid to tell anyone. It helps so much knowing that there are supportive people here I can turn to. I think its my fault with the money stuff because everytime that I mention to my husband that I don't think I can do this he make the comment "you know that you working is the only way we are going to keep the house." I actually want to move and rent. We would qualify for metro housing where they pay part of the rent and also utilities. He refuses. He is afraid that we will have to live in a bad area and that he will never be able to buy a house again. I am thinking about signing up for metro and getting on the waiting list and looking for an apartment. If I find one in a good area that takes metro maybe I can show him that it will be OK.