Passionskyy what you are experiencing is exactly how I felt after I was hospitalized the first time. Very raw and vulnerable. I remember going to get my prescritions for the first time and to the mall. It felt extremely vulnerable-it felt like so much stimulus. And the changing of the meds-Actually it took about 6 months just to start feeling alittle more balanced-I had alot of confusion and questions. I hope you feel good with you PDoc-that is so important. I actually had one that I had worked with some years earlier with depression. It was after my hospitalization that it was realized I had Bipolar. So, just getting used to the idea was alot. (To be honest, I still have a hard time with it) Anyway, didn't want to just write all about me-but just wanted to reinforce that you are not alone in your experience. Glad you are here and have the people on this site. I hope the best for you and your recovery! Easy does it and be gentle with yourself! Peace