I'm continually confused, and curious, about why you want to keep seeing your t, CE. I might have asked before and I remember you saying there are things you like about her, but I don't remember you talking about what. Maybe she says supportive, nice things sometimes that you don't post about or I haven't seen? I know you've been seeing her for 10 years, and that has got to have caused some attachment and familiarity, but I don't know why you wanted to talk to her for that long. I don't read on here consistently, but it usually seems like your posts are about your t being pretty extremely cold when you just want basic reassurance that she gives half a damn about you. It seems pretty reasonable to me that clients need to feel their t at least cares or gives a sh**. I can understand if sometimes a t won't show a client they care if it comes across like the client is being too dependent or manipulative or something. But if the t continually shows they can't meet the client's basic, human need to know he or she is worth caring about at all in the relationships he or she is in, I think it's an unhealthy relationship.

I'm also confused why you say you like power. It seems like you're pretty self critical and humble on here. Maybe I don't understand or maybe you don't express your demanding side on here. I'm not saying that for the purpose of being nice, it just really doesn't make sense to me. It comes across to me more like you might enjoy the habit of criticizing yourself if anything.