I have obsessions and compulsions. Thoughts enter my head and they keep going around and around. The more I try to push them out, the stronger they return. I went travelling in Australia last year and got such a bad attack of the obsessive thoughts that I ended up physically shaking. I got really upset and ended up going to hospital because I just didnt know what to do. The thoughts always come at a time when I am supposed to be at my most happiest and relaxed. Something kicks in my brain, telling me I cant or am not allowed to relax, and the thoughts begin. It happens when ever I am on holiday. So the holiday turns into a mental chore. My thoughts tend to consist of things in the past. My brain reacts telling me that something terrible is going to happen. There is no reason why something terrible should happen, and I dont even know what this terrible thing might be, but the fear is there, stuck in my brain, until it eventually subsides. Then it starts all over again a few weeks later.