I don't think your selfish at all Sailaway, in fact, it's a sign of growth to be able to finally say "what about me", when you have had to give so much of yourself to what others want or need you to be. There is nothing wrong with your needing to have your voice finally heard and your experiences validated in the presence of a caring and nuturing and knowledgable facilitator, who has been helping you reach that very vulnerable place, which you have been required to push back over and over again. Now it must seem like for not, all the work and growth because there will be a break in connection with your T.

My first T, received orders stateside while I was on a Military Psych-Ward and he was very concerned at how I was going to process trust issues, being he was the first one I had opened up to about abuse issues, so what he wanted to do was check up on my progress and keep connected by writing letters, we did this for about a year or so until I was re-established stateside where I would maintain a relationship with a Civilian Therapist, he knew I had a way of disappearing into the crowd, and the military life is good at allowing that to occur, because of the mobility, its easy to move on, chin up.. chest out..and do what must be done..smile...and while our correspondence was not therapy, it was therapeutic. The correspondence helped allot, it was nothing heavy duty in the letters, just kind of a "Hey how ya doing, yeah I know its tough, and you can do it"...type of communications, but they meant the world to me..while I was living overseas...I dont know if you or your T would be open to exchanging a letter now and again, just for you to be able to keep in touch, but its worth a try...and just a suggestion

Please take care of yourself over in Iraq, be safe, take care Sailaway...