Also MM not to be pushy but yes if you are taking in such little fluids and not enough food you can die. Even if you have done it before and got through it. The heart literally shrinks and heart failure can happen anytime. The longer the ed is present the higher the risk. It really is like roulette. You do not have to be severely underweight or underweight at all for this to happen. The chronic starvation is enough. There is no safe line.

Please try to at least make sure you get electrolytes into your body. It is concerning because I think you said before that you don't drink much water but mountain dew. I hope I am remebering correctly, forgive me if I am not. But electrolytes are exteremly important for heart funtion and organ function. You can buy tabs called nuun at sports stores or health food stores that are flavoured and you just pop it into a glass of water. You could even do half a glass of water. Coconut water is the best source of electrolytes and very little calories same as nuun tablets.

Next best choice is childrens pedialyte which also comes in popcycles or gateraide.

Do you ever have shakes? Would Boost or Ensure be an option, that can be easier and quicker than eating. They are not that high calorie but at least you will be getting required nutrients.

I hope this does not upset you, I really just want you to be safe.

I agree with Iz too, not the time to be making descisions. It's very hard to see where he is coming from, but on the other hand MM he loves you very much and this could kill you, he cannot say that is ok. He could really loose you permanently if he did. It can be frustrating but I am sure he just wants you to be safe and not hurting.