Thanks everyone. Your hugs and kind thoughts are very appreciated. I just want everyone to know Im doing fine. Being at a distance for many years provides some protection against the loss but in some ways he died for me a little every day while we were apart.

RFD, you didnt say much, kinda like dad, but you said a lot, thanks.

Adam, I know this is close to home for you and Im sorry if it triggered you. Thanks for stopping in. Ive told you before how proud I think your dad would be of you. Yes, there was love between them. he joked more than once that he had to marry her, if he didnt, no one else would. Funny, but I think true too. Rascally woman.

Frightened, I dont know whats going on for you but I want to say hang in there. It was kind of you to stop by with your own feelings being raw. Wishing some peace for you.