Wired wrongly,

Welcome, I too have experienced the things you mentioned. I have been diagnosed with major depression. I just typed out my experience with my therapist and deleted it from this message. I realized that if I said what I was going to say it wouldn't help anybody, it might actually make things worse. Hmm, but by me saying that its going to produce fear, and that will make it worse still... damn, I don't know what to say.

Ok, I would suggest that you do go to your therapist, and that you just say how you really feel. You are trying to help yourself when you feel like total crap, right? So just say exactly how you feel when you feel your worst. Hopefully the therapist will know what to do.