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Originally Posted by hankster
I kinda agree with sawe. I pretty much yelled at my current T for the first 2 or 3 years and thought he was an idiot. Except he was my 5th T, and I was behaving with him the same way I had with previous Ts. So by then, I had to admit, it wasn't them, it was me. Only I wasn't ready to admit THAT!! So I blamed the process, and tried to learn as much about it as I could. I've been thinking lately of all the stuff I felt I couldn't tell my T, because then what would they think of me?? I wish I had said it all much sooner.
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Hankster I read what you say about your T and your therapy with great interest, I love to hear about it. What you're saying here makes a heap of sense to me. I keep telling myself it's not likely that I'm the one seeing person in the country of the blind (as in terms of having a series of crappy Ts) so I'm usually looking to myself to see what I'm doing wrong, how I'm contributing, how my patterns are repeating themselves with each new T.
What I like about what you said, stuff you felt you couldn't tell your T and wished you had much sooner, well, I make no bones about telling my Ts just about everything I can think of, both about me and how I'm experiencing the therapy, but the one thing I haven't been 'allowed' to do up to now, is express my anger at them (been terminated for less!) So maybe that's what I should do now, go ahead and send my hurt and angry second email to T, and take the risk that if she can accept it and not throw her hands up in horror and tell me she can't work with me (for whatever reason) then maybe that will be the making of this therapy.
Or not.
