Chandler it is inspiring to read your post as you shared everything that is going on So much weight to carry. I am in awe of your strength . I can't imagine how traumatic it was for you to have to try and revive your Mom. My mom passed away when she was 53 of pnemonia and I was living in another state. I have taken so many different SSRI's, antidepressants, over the last seven years and I have found that for me they cause more problems.Even though with the weight gain, psychosis, paranoia and depression that I have, some of the drugs take the edge off a little. I too take seroquel to sleep, it works. warm thoughts to you.