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Originally Posted by GirlOfManyFaces
I'm scared. I've been cutting all week. And today I've really really wanted to kill myself. But I have two people on PC that are keeping me here... Anyway...
I scared because I didn't even need a blade to cut this time. I just kept clawing at myself in frustration and it started to bleed... I'm scared... Now I don't even need something to hurt myself. I just need me
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That is all you ever needed to hurt yourself. You have probably been doing it for years now, its just been inside where the scars don't show.
Even though you don't want to and are scared, you need to get someplace safe. You really do need to go the ER and let them know that you are afraid you are going to do something further to hurt yourself. Putting off treatment is only going to make things worse for you. There is no reason why you should have to suffer like this. I'm sure you could come up with a million excuses as to why you don't need to go get help, or you are feeling better now or any other of several excuses. The bottom line is that you are a danger to yourself. This isn't somehthing you can do by yourself. We can't be there to stop you, nor can we perscribe anti-depressants or other medications or give you professional help. You are a good person. Take a deep breath and take the first step in stopping your pattern of behavior.
Sam2