I can so relate to feeling the confusion and wish I could say something helpful. I seem to have been in the midst of feeling something csa happened to me, for a while now and sometimes feel desperate and would do anything to find out something concrete, and at the same time feel absolutely terrified of finding this something out.

To have your Dad say something like this must feel frightening and add to the confusion even more. Do you get any 'gut' feelings surrounding any of this?