Please don't feel like a fool in anyway. A fool would be someone who knows something is wrong but lets fear of embarrasment keep them from posting here or contacting the counselors and other people in a position to help.

Crying is an expression of how much you care about your son and also some of the stress you yourself are under and is nothing at all to be ashamed of. Any counselors will recognize that, any that don't shouldn't be counselling.

When dealing with this, there is always the fear of being judged by others who may not understand. You are doing the right things in seeking help from professionals and support through this forum. It is possible that your family may surprise you and be supportive as well. There is lots of literature and information available to help them understand. But if you don't want to risk that right now, IMO that is OK because it doesn't seem to be hampering the process of getting the help your family needs. There may be some point in the future when the possibility of their support may be valuable but for right now you have us, and we are "guaranteed" to understand as we've all been there ourselves, and if you need you may also be able to find some local support groups in your area, maybe on the recommendation of one of your doctors, to give you some contact with others who understand if you feel that might be helpful.

You are doing the right things so be confident in that and you can rely on us to always be here to listen and understand.

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