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Originally Posted by dubblemonkey
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ok lets just put aside the manic depressive emotions for a bit!
hey thats a massive ask ....HUGE...impossible!....right?
ok...consider this!!
(this is spoken in my own voice)
...do you get irritated before you get satisfied?
...do you get agitated before you get mystified?
do you get emotional before the reason for it?
...does this continue past the point of useful?
like you are crippled?
do you suffer from absent mind?...like you arrived already
and whats the point of catching up again it was easy anyway but now it's suddenly hard trying to prove it was easy!?
and do you fail so bad at the regular crap!...?
drifting elsewhere toward a personal utopia?...mental Nirvana?
harmless beautiful....sacred !...nuthouse extraordinaire?
weirdo magnificent self destructive?
a cartoon of a human?
do you drift into your own caricature....just to get by
and then stuff it right up?
then it's quite possible you are a freaking genius!!
very cool
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I don't think I'm a genius, but I think i have moments of genius when i enter that "white" euphoric phase of hypo-mania.....it's not simply delusions of grandeur---my memory suddenly sharpens to a fine point, my ability to articulate and express ideas astonishes me. My brain teems with ideas, I can multi-function like an android, I understand Einstein's theories visually, I become engrossed with abstract mathematics/philosophies, my poetic abilities flow with ease and I create my best work during these moments. (I'm an artist). The problem then occurs when the white phase starts moving into a chaotic rush of too many branching thoughts, too much over load, lack of focus till the over-stimulus fries the beautiful dance that was previously moving together in perfect consort. If only it would stay in that earlier phase.
One thing's for sure...from the few stays i've had at psych units, i have found that bipolars (even the uneducated ones), had a creative/intelligent spark above the average joe.