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Why are you taking seroquel? Isn't that for schitzophrenia? I use it for sleeping, but does it help with PTSD?

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Seroquel is used primarily for schitzophrenia and bipolar disorders, but it is also used to help with hallucinations, delusions and confusion.

While I am not to sure I had any delusions before, during, or after all this I do know that I have had hallucinations in the hospital while sedated and lots of confusion since then, at least about the details. I know the chain of events, and I know the why behind everything I went through, but the details is what is so hard to deal with, or rather the not knowing all the true ones from many of the fantasy ones.

It would have been better, IMHO, if I had been kept completely under during all of this, but I do understand that the medical staff were concerned with my stats being lowered even further by too much due to the sedatives. I have been told that at one point, on 100% o2 that my pulse ox had dropped to 80. It is those moments when I was in bewtween sedated sleep and wakefulness that is so hard to correlate.

Please do not think I am blaming any of the doctors, nurses, etc. I am not and my gratefulness of the lengths they all went through to save my life knows no bounds. They did what they had to do and they never gave up. (At one time I had a team of doctors that numbered over 20 working together).

If things do not resolve themselves from talking about it here I will attempt to find a counselor or therapist to hash it all out in person. All I know is that it is effecting how I am functioning in my day to day life. It started out like a small nagging headache that will not go away but is easily ignored for a while but as days pass it gets worse until it starts to invade your world. There is no pain of course, but it is the best analogy I can come up with.

AS a full time stay at home Dad I can not afford too many compromises.