Thak you guys soooo much for all your comments; it feels so good to be able to talk (write) about this and not feel guilty while doing it.
As some of you know, I'm bipolar, and one of my biggest struggles is that I can't express myself in a really good way, becuase my thoughts come and go so fast, I can't keep up.
I thought it'll be good if I explain a little bit more.
This person is really close to me, we grow up together, she is older than me, but I've been holding her hand for the past 25 years. Now I need somebody's hand to hold me and she is not there.
She hasn't been abused, she has depression but is not a major issue in her everyday life. I can say all this because I know every detail.
So what really pissed me off, was that when I needed her she turn things around and tried to portrayed herself as a "victim of everything" just so she doesn't have to help me with all my crap.
And yes, I'm taking my distance. It's really hurting, but after all this time, now I know who are really interested in helping me, and who are just there.
Thanks again!!!! I really apreciatted everything you wrote.
((Myself)) it was really interesting to read about you and I have so much to say, but again; my mind is gone sometimes, I'm sorry
Love xoxo