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I'm stuck. Ran out of litter last week, out of wet cat food yesterday, will soon run out of dry cat food. Thats more worrying to me than the car that I need to somehow I need to get in to my mechanic to fix. I still can't lift anything over 10 lbs so that stops me from using cabs, this may be the south but drivers do not get out of their cabs to help anymore. My frig has been empty for a couple weeks but frozen food is still good, I just can't seem to deal with anything. Every night I tell myself tomorrow I'm going to get up, get dressed, go get the mail(uncollected for over a month) see if I can lift the hood of my car(it's heavy and all I may need is coolant-I hope/dream but I suspect its the fan).
I tell myself I'm going to watch TV, I turned it on and some one local got drunk and shot his friend, the gun laws were raging, I shut it off and went back to bed with another book to escape reality. I did manage to watch some TV during the last week, but when I try to face the door inertia set in and I head for the bed. Its just too overwhelming. This is the first I've had my computer on for quite a while. I wanted to see if I could find a place to order groceries, pay bills but I can't seem to remember my passwords. I feel like there's a growing pyramid weighing me down.
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Nammu
…Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …...
Desiderata Max Ehrmann
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