I often don't feel human... or as I put it "I am unfit for human consumption."

I otherwise say I'm high maintenance and no one else in the world has the time to get to know me and care. Sad.

The mushrooms are just a way to try and self medicate yourself out of the misery you feel. Therapy isn't as quick, but it works for the long haul.

A PTSD expert helps to realize that the world YOUR WORLD has changed... how you view it, how you must live in it, how to regain your balance within it.

For my generation we always wondered why those older generations (now all but passed) never spoke about the wars they fought (it was called shell shock then...only PTSD after Vietnam...) well it was because they knew no one else understood...and men didn't know how to voice their feelings anyway back then...

at least we have that going for us: a world wide system trying to educate SOME one on this malady.