Live in the present, that's the advice we mostly get. And hell ya I am living in present, sometimes happy, sometimes sad but pretty much adjusted to the idea of living in present. But then again this new advice from people that you have to think about your future, work for it and all... I am confused man. Well I may sound stupid to you but I am really scared of my future, and the thought of living in present and not thinking of future comforts me. But lets just face the reality, life doesn't work that way, everyone knows that. And everyone knows you have to overcome this fear but this is just what I know and doesn't experience.

I know I have to overcome this fear but I simply can't. I mean this is simple, how hard it is to understand that but my mind doesn't get that. I feel this enormous energy inside me most of the time, and i am like breathing heavily, and I don't know if its because I am scared of future or just because I am not doing enough things.

Thinking of me as a grown-up and taking responsibilities, working simply beats the **** out of me. Some of you may think I am lame but that's the reality. I am hell scared...