Hi. I really am stuck. Ive been with my partner for 10yrs and found out early on that he liked todress as a woman occasionally. He made it out that was just fun so i went along with itand we even went to fetish nights occssionally. But over the years i noticed it wasnt fuu no more, he would take my clothes and make up and wear these, so then i didnt want to wear these things again. I have tried to "give it another go", on and off over the years and i have let him touch me and make love to me when he was drezsed but i found this made me feel dirty and horrible. He only dresses to ejaculate as soon as he has, he takes off the clothes. But i cannot now have sex with him. I feel dirty. If i dress up nice i feel he is only thinging about what he would look like in the clothes. I have caught him several times dressed in my clothes so he can masturbate while watching women on tv. I dont want him to touch me and i have tried to explain and also tried to understand why he does it to see if its my fault. He says he dosent know why he does it but it is clear that he dosent need me. I am just a front so other people dont know. I hate hime for it. I said he could get dressed up a few days back and i said when you look in the mirror tell me what you see. But he couldnt. It was meant that he were just to dress, have dinner, then get undressrd but i ended up being verbal to him and him masturbating watchung himself in tge mirror. He is desrroying us both and i have asked him to leave but says he wont because of the house. We dont have anything in common anymore and this is tearing me spart. Am i to blame ? What do i do? Please can anyone help me to make sense of this before i go insane.