i think alot of people think that way about the future, and it is one of my biggest fears, when i'm bored the thoughts of death and just how i could survive without my husband and son and immediate family crosses my mind. i worry about disability being gone even though i've been on it since 1987 after an accident. i also worry if i feel like i need the hospital, anxiety being the problem, as i would rather be home,even though i tell people the hospital isn't bad, anymore. i just need to have some sort of consistancy in my life, i'm disabled and wish to God i could find a job outside my home, but i don't even have transportation.