Had a session tonight and managed to talk to her for whole session. Probably first time I've managed this in 2 years. Problem is I had an accident at the end of last week and damaged back and been coping by blocking out physical pain. After session tonight I don't seem to be able to block anything and both physical and emotional pain are acute. I can't sleep and my mind is in over drive. Ironically session was about how I feel a nuisance to everyone and even posting here is bringing it all up, but I so need to try and get this under control. T is now out of country for a week so I need to get through this on my own.