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Feb 19, 2013, 09:34 PM
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Member Since: Jan 2013
Location: Far Far Away
Posts: 112
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Sorry if this is in the wrong place ....i couldnt find where it went :/
I cant do it ....what i mean is i cant cope ...with life...with the way i look...with memories....with anything,im hurting myself on the outside just to kill the things on the inside,not able to sleep but when i do manage to im waking up wishing to no longer be here,...why does suicide feel like the only way out ?the world will be so much better without me here ,i have no hope and i cant take it anymore...am i a bad person for wanting to die ?i dont feel good enough for anything ...the scars on my body are reminding me of why i did them in the first place and that makes it even harder to think about all the things that have happend and to not be able to get them out of my mind they just keep going around and around....I have a secret that i havent told anyone about ...im so scared to tell them because im scared of what they will think of me and the fact that i cant tell anyone ...is making living even harder...all i can do right now is cry ...it seems the only thing i know , ..its getting too hard to even get through one day ...i feel like my time is running out ..i am a mistake ..i feel like im too tired to fight anymore ...why does it have to be so painful ?i feel so empty ,there is no light ,no hope,all i can see is darkness...i cant relax i feel so anxious all the time...i feel like i am lost and dont know where to look to find myself...TOO MUCH NOISE...TOO MANY THOUGHTS ....when i look in the mirror i dont recognise the peson looking back.......
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