I have for a long time denied that I have been anxious -- I thought it was all depression giving me worries and keeping me from sleeping. Since then I have learned that my worries are excessive and wax and wane separately from the depression, that anxiety keeps wakes me up at night and that the crying fits come with panic attacks.

I have for a long time had therapists attempt to tell me that I an anxious due to an avoidance personality. Always denied it, but lately I am trying to understand how this less than obvious anxiety intrudes into my thoughts,