My contact went legit recently which killed my access to the drug. I've been psychologically dependent for a long time and had been self medicating with it to ease my anxiety, depression, and to regain an appetite that suffers when I'm stressed/extremely anxious. I feel like this has happened at the worst possible time with my disability review court date approaching and discovering that I have gallstones that while not immediately a problem will eventually need to be removed.

I'm not sure how to deal with this. My mind wants me to find a new contact but logic tells me I need to lay off. I feel so lost. I'm really struggling with wrapping my mind around everything that's going on. I need ideas on how to get my mind OFF the idea that I "need" weed because the "need" only adds on to my stress which at this point is absolutely massive. Anyone got some ideas? :/