Dear T, thanks for working things out so that i can come back. i really thought you were trying to tell me last time you didn't have any openings for me. i tried looking at the facts and they said otherwise, but it still felt that way to me. sorry i freaked out about it.

i am hoping if i ask you can help me find ways of getting myself out of that damn point of no return.... i lose myself and all awareness of what is going on around me and also lose any feeling of safety....just feel a need to RUN LIKE HELL....FAR AWAY FROM WHERE EVER I AM...

and i. don't. like. it. one. damn. bit.