Hi, Jamie. We are certainly here to listen and to support you.

I have a suggestion: Would you be able to go see your primary care doctor or a regular doctor and bring this topic up? That would certainly be less overwhelming than heading straight to a "head doc."

This doc might prescribe an antidepressant and likely help you make an appointment with someone who could help down the road. Do you have anyone who could go with you? A friend? A sibling? If you don't want to go by yourself......

I do hope you check back. You made the first step by posting here. That in itself is a major milestone. Feel proud of yourself for doing that!

And if you aren't really feeling like you're in danger of carrying out any plan, hang around here for awhile. Play some games. Chat about something light. And then over time work up to addressing deeper topics with your new-made friends here.