Nightlight I'm sorry your in the middle of bad stuff too. Sometimes I feel like there is no end to all of this. I don't think I will ever be able to feel differently about this, but I suppose part of me is looking for something different or I wouldn't keep going. The attachment to t makes things difficult as well. I really feel for you waiting for yours to return. I am really scared as mine is away this week but has offered me a Skype session and then is back for one week and away again, this time she will not be contactable. She has so little time time off I hate the fact that I begrudge her the few weeks she does take.
I always feel that others on here deserve help, but I don't. I just want the pain to stop, but then don't we all.