Mania & hypomania aren't necessarily "happy..." They're not something most people look forward to. They have dark sides too. Besides the lack of impulse control & desire to do unhealthy, dangerous things. Think agitated, anxious, exhausted. Frustrated. Angry. Rage. And it's all moving so fast and you can't slow it down. You lose focus. Sometimes instead of thinking you're awesome, your brain fills with self loathing. You can hate yourself & be manic or hypomanic at the same time. Then you've got a pocket full of dynamite. You've got a thousand ideas spinning in your head & they get negative. You just want it to stop... You see where this is heading?

As far as the lows, it's not typically just feeling a little bummed out. It's full on depression. It brings all the special treats that depression brings. It can last a long time. From your post, I know that you understand how much it sucks & I feel for you.

To answer your question, I'd rather be normal.