I would rather not be manic ever again nor depressed...normal don't know about that either, I'll settle for stable me . Mania usually last months for me and and it always brings psychosis and great physical and mental agitation.. can't even think just fragments of thoughts the speed of light. It's a rather scary experience for me. It always feels like I might never come back.

From one extreme to the next you can literally seem like a few different people all rolled into one, and people don't usually react kindly to that either.

I am sorry you have to deal with depression.