We had a long disjointed (on my part) conversation until I made him exasperated again. I swear that's easy to do! He's more sad now and not happy that "I'm just not understanding. I'm understanding each part but not connecting it and it frustrates him because I'm smart", See I can listen for two seconds. He thinks I'm attacking myself instead of others I guess that's better, right? My word vomit today I guess made him understand me better because I made him sad instead of mad. Who knows.

T will probably call tomorrow because I told her I was paranoid to see her Monday. That's she'd "lock me up" and to remind me that she wont. So I'm not looking forward to that but it's much needed.