Doing T and everything asked is not to fight the ED but violent mood swings. My lack of desire of getting rid of ED has made it a backseat priority. I think T's hoping when the mood swings are in check I'll be more amenable to dealing with ED.

You are trying to decide if you should leave your family so you can continue behaviors? Yes, I am. I'd be a calmer home for my son and husband.
Are you really fighting the disease? Not right now. One day I may and I don't want to feel I made a bad choice.
Do you plan to fight and work just as hard in therapy if you leave your family? Therapy yes, meds no, they make me hungry and I really have issues with that. At the same time T may not see me un-medicated.
Are you looking for a reason to leave your H? My H is my world, he's the best guy for me. I'm not looking but ED is a sticking point that may be a deal breaker.

I'm perfectly fine with him loving and caring about me but I am clinging to the eating disorder mindset for dear life!