That sounds like a painful place to be in CE. Sometimes I find it help me to make up my mind once I'm there with T, because sometimes when I'm so sure it's the end, it hasn't been. It doesn't stop me planning for the worst though and riding a horrible roller coaster that I wish I could get off, in that in between time.

We'll be here to listen, whatever happens between now and then, and after your next session too.