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Old Feb 20, 2013, 05:40 AM
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Voltin Voltin is offline
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Originally Posted by lonelywoman32 View Post
Voltin,

I use a USB flash drive which is also known as a memory stick. I live alone but I save everything i write for privacy because I sometimes go out of town and have someone to watch my house or In case something happens . I like the ideas that others posted like using a journal book with a lock or using a blogger site and setting it private. I think all those are good ideas. I hope I helped.
The help has been fantastic ,I did choose to use the memory stick due to the convenience of keeping it close to me.

I am finding the ability to feel secure knowing only I have total access , and has given me the freedom to let things come to surface. I can read it and say yes that is how I feel and that is how I think. It's not at the point where I really have gotten past the fear of exposure ,I'm guessing that will take time.

I have the baggage of abuse and trust is not something I give to anyone. Then having something happen to where you are being told you have this Disorder of BP , I don't know...maybe five years ago , I am really at this point again finding my self restraining behavior in public with constant checking into everything I feel . Lost of trust in myself. I haven't done anything to warrant it ( I think), but when I put myself in a social situation recently, I was petrified I would become manic. So my hope is things I write might tell me something , if not just give me some relief of unloading.
As of 2 or 3 entries on the memory stick I have felt somewhat more relaxed afterward.
We'll see where I go from here .
Tally ho !
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