I just want to make it clear that I do appreciate very much people who have posted positive alternative perspectives on my T’s email and that it’s helped me enormously to keep a sense of balance in the overwhelming feelings I’ve been experiencing since Monday. Just about everyone has managed to make me feel that I’m understood while at the same time pointing out alternative interpretations so please don’t anyone think I feel bad or unsupported by comments that didn’t just reflect how I feel .

Update for today – my feelings haven’t changed, and I’m going to email my T and forewarn her of my reactions to her email to me. It won’t be the angry one I’ve already composed, but it won’t be a touchy feely one either. I think she’s gaslighted me big time and I have a terrible sense of betrayal that I’m struggling to overcome. I am not looking forward to tomorrow