Do you agree that homicidal is not a healthy way to feel? That it is a dangerous feeling? If you do then its your responsability to get help and make sure you never act on that feeling. Meds are good they help us and may help those feelings as well. Hospitals are a necessity some times, a chanxe to regroup and start over. I just got out of the hospital 1 month ago. Its one of those necessary evils an even though you hate it, it is meant to help you.