The pain of not being truly loved and of being emotionally abused by my parents (especially my mother); the need and want for this to change (even though intellectually I know that it won't). This pain and need has created since my early childhood (I'm 30 now) a tremendous sense of insecurity, a huge separation anxiety fear, lots of guilt and shame, and a never-ending seeking of self-worth only through the approval and acceptance of older people (which is never enough). Only recently have I started to think about my true self... We said hello for the first time and now we are struggling to get to know each other. The beginning of a extremely painful journey which many of you, I know for a fact, are also trying to experience...