I'm in the middle of attempting to make the most important decision of my life: whether to give up almost 25 years of marriage and someone I've known since I was 16. It would be entirely my decision and it would be something very, very hard to stick with because he would be fighting me the whole way, but I just don't feel like I can continue having my feelings denied and invalidated much longer. And please don't mention marriage counseling....he had a bad counselor when very young and will refuse to go.

So if I seem off more than usual, please understand why....