GreyThinker; I do think I am afraid of happiness. Every time something fun, or amazing news comes up it always some how doesn't happen. (For example. My parents and me were supposed to go on a Cruise in March. I didn't even try to be happy about it cause I knew it wasn't going to happen. And sure enough we cancelled the cruise.) And now me and my mom are supposed to be going to Chicago for a baby shower (the same time we were gonna go on the cruise.) and I just feel like I shouldn't get excited for it just in case it doesn't happen... (This has gone on my entire life. I get my hopes up and then it doesn't happen.) And a little example of this is a couple months ago I asked my dad if we could put an art room in the basement for me and he said yes we can, but the other day I heard him on the phone with my aunt and he wants to put a portrait studio in the basement for her. I can do my art in my room but the only reason I wanted it in the basement was because of just having a room to myself to do my art and just relax...